I’m not hypoglycemic

it just feels like it. Almost as soon as I started bringing my blood sugar under control I started suffering uncomfortable symptoms, usually between lunch and evening meal. As the evening meal got closer, I would feel more and more uncomfortable, and checking various lists of symptoms they most closely matched hypoglycaemia (hypo) which was a bit worrying. However, I do test my blood (obviously) and it was never low enough to be classified as hypo nor low enough to be dangerous.

We surmised that my body basically wasn’t used to having ‘normal’ blood sugar or long periods between meals. It was also possibly even related to the idea of having food. For example, sometimes if I knew it was going to be a while before I ate (going to the cinema or shopping) the symptoms wouldn’t be anywhere near as bad until after that activity. It was almost as if my body was acting hypo to get my attention.

Anyway, I had a regular diabetic checkup a month or so back, blood sugar average still really good (I may have blogged it?), and I spoke to the nurse about a few things. She confirmed that in some people who’ve had high blood sugar untreated for a while, they can suffer feelings of hypoglycaemia while having normal blood sugar levels. At the time it was good to hear.

Doesn’t make me feel any better when I find I’m shaking while trying to cook something or I end up being dozy and not remembering things people have said to me. I’m going to try and increase the distance between my breakfast and my lunch, at the moment they’re far too close together through habit. That will in turn reduce the time between lunch and my evening meal hopefully reducing the feelings I get. We’ll see how that works out.

Since it’s been a few weeks since my checkup I’m also entering the ‘I’m not doing well’ stage where I decide I’m eating the wrong stuff and my blood sugar average is going to be terrible. Even though I do spot checks and my sugar is usually pretty well within the right range and what I’d expect I still start to doubt myself and second guess and worry. The annoying thing is that it doesn’t really change what I eat, or if it does it can have a negative effect (stuff it, I’m having some biscuits my average is already shot). But I guess I just have to recognise the problem and stay on top of it. Grete’s great as always.

I have moments where I look back and wonder how it’s not worse than it is. I can recall some days in 2004 where I might get to work, have a 500ml bottle of coke with breakfast, have another can of coke in the run up to lunch. Have some lunch, not actually too bad, but with some kind of sweetened drink either more coke or a non-fruit fruit juice. Perhaps share a couple of packets of chewy sweets with the rest of the team, or eat half a packet of wine gums during the afternoon. Of course that would be washed down with another can of coke. Those moments help me realise that staying on track isn’t actually going to be that hard. I don’t drink regular coke any more, I haven’t had a sugar-based sweet since I was diagnosed, and I avoid any fruit drinks other than actual bona fide fruit without anything added.

Which means the big culprits are bread and erm, bread mostly. I’ve virtually given up white bread, instead sticking to Tesco’s Finest Rustic Multi-grain, which is tasty and doesn’t usually appear to impact my sugar badly.

My two most deadly nemesisses (hah and it’s a real word) are Pizza and Bacon Sandwiches. I mean come on, you can’t have bacon sandwiches in multi-grain bread. It’s got to be white.

One Vision!

These posts are archives of forum / blog entries I made on my EverQuest guild website. The website won’t be around forever, and I wanted the posts all in one place so I didn’t lose them, this blog seemed like as good a place as any.


The 1st of September saw TNF’s first Anguish raid, and it was a mighty success. If you’ve not seen the video, head over to the Forums and check out Simes’ post. Anguish was the culmination of a long period of raiding for us, you don’t just walk into Anguish in the right gear and kill those mobs. You need to understand how to raid, how to raid efficiently, how to handle multiple kinds of healing, how to handle different kinds of mobs and different sources of damage. The things TNF learned beating the Planes of Power, raiding in Time, beating Uqua and all the raids we did before that came together in Anguish. On a personal level, it was astoundingly good fun, and I want to thank everyone for turning up, and doubly for those who managed to stay until the end, much beyond our normal finish time. As co-raid leader, and I know Siddhaya feels the same, we’re proud to raid with you and proud to have gotten here with you the right way, with hard work and learned skills.

Keldovan the Harrier posed no threat to us, we beat his little pets to death while was looking the other way and then we nailed him to the wall. Grats to Loxado, Simes, Raggnok, Grayhelm and Goldun on loot drops, and Bellin on her Anguish backflag.

Ture roared and roared and roared but failed to blow our house in. Check out Simes’ video of Ture sulking with his heads in the wall and showing his arse to the raid. Even that didn’t manage to put us off and he dropped like the big dog he is. Grats to Ciorine, Goldun, Donii, Torakk and Hetshu on loot drops and Spirithelm on his Anguish backflag.

Warden Hanvar tried to outwit us, his Dragorn guards put on a good show, but it was in vein. We wittled them down and smashed his great ugly beast spine into little itty small bits. Your axe doesn’t scare us Warden Hanvar. Grats to Belline, Moonebeam, Annalaesta (epic 2.0 orb), Nlaokx, Tinyface and Seibas on loot drops and Marissa on her Anguish backflag.

Jelvan, why do you not escape yourself you lazy ass? Well we tried to rescue you but we got overwhelmed, also we got no video or screenshots! But we recovered and we showed your tormentors what it means to suffer and we freed you from your prison you ungrateful bitch. Grats to Annalaesta, Spirithelm, Kubit, Swifit, Mirzerker (epic 2.0 orb) and Simes on loot drops, and Caminaara on her Anguish backflag.

On the way, we triggered some Lieutenants, but even they could not stop us. Damlin Lingering Charge, First Lieutenant Minas and Vilria the Keeper. Grats to Loxado, Zanbuko and Aaiamen on their augs.

And then came Arch Magus Vangl. It was late, very late, and he was mean, very mean. Mostly though his guards were even meaner. We put up a valiant effort, but it was doomed, literally. Next time we’ll get to him faster, and we’ll be less tired and more awake.

Anguish you were everything we expected, and we’ll be back.

It’s Friday!

And I need it to end as soon as possible. Or at least, I need it to get to 4:30pm as soon as possible.

What I need is a little device that compresses the hours between 8:30am and 4:30pm, and then expands the time between 4:30pm and 8:30am. It wouldn’t be cheating that badly, I mean it’s not like I’d be travelling through time or anything crazy. I just need to bend time a little bit.

Die Hard 4.0

Bucking the trend of trilogies in 2007 we get the 4th Die Hard movie. The anticipation, the worry. The fear! Bruce Willis over50 years old, could he really pull off another John McClane? I was definately nervous going to see this, more nervous than the third Bourne movie. This one had a real chance of being embarassing.

A friend had said it was good – which alleviate the concern a little, but still, there was much trepadation in the air.

The movie starts off by covering the years between #3 and #4 in 20 seconds, introducing us to McClane’s teenage daughter and setting his location and status. I found it useful, it dispensed with the background quickly and made sure that all we had to worry about was the story going forward. McClane is still a cop, still sarcastic and still getting shot at for no good reason. In 4.0 John is sent to pickup a minor league hacker, who has become embroiled in a Fire Sale (everything must go!) hack accidentally, and neither John nor the hacker are aware of how far the Fire Sale perpetrators are prepared to go.

The action kicks in immediately and the chase begins, because this Die Hard movie is basically one huge chase movie. The bad guys are constantly on the move, John McClane is constantly under attack through a number of mechanisms and the action follows them from location to location. The humour of Die Hard is present and as deeply ingrained in John’s character as ever. John’s sidekick is a worrying addition but it turns out ok despite my fears. The bad guy is suitably cool and yet deeply frustrated by John’s existance. The special effects are superb and the encounters are typically over-the-top; McClane survives an attack by a figher jet while driving a truck for example.

The plot is nothing amazing, but it’s twisty enough to be interesting, the final endgame is revealed pretty early on but then that’s not why anyone is watching (right? you weren’t hoping for an indepth and intricate thriller whodunnit)? The movie really just focusses on the core of Die Hard, John McClane fighting increasingly absurd attempts to kill him while getting ever closer to stopping the bad guy.

Without too much of a spoiler, the introduction of his daughter at the start was foreshadowing, and if you have to save a family member well the stakes are just that much higher …

It’s not as good as the original, but it is better than #2 and #3 and it is nearly as good as the original.

The Bourne Ultimatum

It’s the year of the trilogy and the Bourne Ultimatum was no exception. I saw the first movie (Bourne Identity) on DVD a while back and enjoyed it, but it was only on seeing it a second time that I really decided I liked it. The second movie (Bourne Supremacy) I saw on TV and enjoyed it, although it’s obviously not as fresh as the first. I had mixed feelings about a third, I wanted it to be brilliant, I feared it would be substandard. I was worried that they would be dragging the story thin, the freshness of the first movie comes partly from the lack of identity of Jason, but he gets closer to knowing who he is, and in the second closer again. Would there be enough left to provide a background? Would it just be a rehash of the first story?

And it was ‘good’, not superb, not as good as the first one, but it was entertaining. I still love the solid confidence of the main character and how well he’s portrayed by Matt Damon. It’s that confidence which brings the character to life, the absolute solid knowledge of what to do next, given any situation, and how to deal with it. It doesn’t matter if he’s right wrong or out-smarted, but his every action is steeped in raw confidence. His movements, running and decisions all come from that rigid absolute knowledge that he has to do exactly what he’s doing. It’s intoxicating.

The story is good, we get to meet a couple of familiar characters and a bunch of new ones, we get some new locations including London, and we get to see a yet-deeper conspiracy within the CIA, convoluting the entire story and situation even further than the second movie. The supporting cast is ok, some of the roles are a bit tired and some of the presentations are pretty much stock-out-of-the-bag, but it holds the story together and gives Bourne a platform on which to perform.

It turns out there is enough story left to delve into and we finally learn how Jason Bourne was created and who created him. We return to his birth, and finally learn what he was prepared to sacrifice for his country.

An excellent action movie, a good spy action movie, and a fitting if slightly-pale follow-up to the first two. A must see for the fans, a should see for people who like this kind of movie.

Reviews – Two

Blogger added labels a while ago, which really fixed the reason why I had two blogs (this one, and my review one), so I just copied and pasted the review entries from the old review one into this one. Yay.

I preserved the dates where I knew what they were, but some of those reviews were copied across from a previous review location and I had lost the original dates, so lots of them are just posted in the same day. New reviews will of course have suitable dates attached to them.

Ugh second day back!

Second day back at work after just over a week off, and all ready I need a holiday! Cliche or not it’s true. Mind you, at the end of my holiday I was ready to get back to work (and Grete was ready for me to come back too!). Couple of weeks off in October which I’m looking forward to, hopefully we’ll get out of the house a bit more during that break and perhaps go and see something!

The number of people inviting me to Facebook finally reached critical mass and I couldn’t resist any longer, I’m still oddly cautious about being ‘me’ on the ‘net rather than some supposedly anonymous entity but I guess the illusion of privacy is just that, an illusion. Anyway within a few hours of being on facebook I’d got back in contact with a couple of people from Uni so I think the benefits outweigh the issues, certainly for me.

Sweet Anguish

These posts are archives of forum / blog entries I made on my EverQuest guild website. The website won’t be around forever, and I wanted the posts all in one place so I didn’t lose them, this blog seemed like as good a place as any.


Welcome to the Asylum
You don’t have to be crazy to raid here, but it helps!


So it happened, TNF put in the hard work, and we made it to Anguish. All six MPG Raid trials have been beaten, and around 20 people got their Anguish flag when Foresight fell on Saturday.

For those who still have some trials missing, don’t worry, we’ll be redoing them over the next couple of raids. For a start, they’re fun! Secondly the loot is still incredibly good quality for TNF. And thirdly, like the Marine Corp. TNF doesn’t leave anyone behind.

Our trip to the Plane of Time was planned, calculated, and we formed an alliance to beat the Gods and ensure our success.

Our trip to Anguish has been a bit of a rollercoaster, we came out of GoD for a week to have a look around, tripped over the Master of Hatred, and then rocketted through the remaining five trials to get where we are. I know you guys have been working hard to get your signets done, and you need to give that your utmost attention in the next few weeks. We need to help each other out to get the RSS / Sewers / Catacombs done since they’re the toughest of the seven.

Anguish lies before us, open and inviting. The door is ajar. The trap is laid. The muramite army sits in wait.

It wouldn’t do to let them down now would it?

Corruption, Adaptation and Hatred

These posts are archives of forum / blog entries I made on my EverQuest guild website. The website won’t be around forever, and I wanted the posts all in one place so I didn’t lose them, this blog seemed like as good a place as any.


Three raids, three victories, three hours of fun in the Muramite Proving Grounds. Grats to everyone who got loot and thanks to everyone who makes the raids as much fun as they are. Truly Naughty Friends are knocking at the door of Anguish. I hope someone’s home.