it was my ring, it’s found 🙂

Rang the restaurant and they found it straight away where we’d been sitting. Haven’t been to pick it up yet so there’s always a chance it’s the wrong one, but I am SO relieved if it is the right one.

too stressed to sleep 🙁

except it looks like I’ve lost my wedding ring 🙁

appears to have fallen off my finger somewhere between Megabowl and my lounge.

no sign outside (but it’s dark) and no sign in the lounge (but it’s full of junk).

🙁

the reality is, that our credit card debt is not in control. it’s expensive, it’s growing, and it’s getting to the point that it’s not going to be cleared by anything short of serious effort.

i’m thinking of taking out a loan, considering how happy i was to pay the last one off, it’s not an easy decision. but just looking at the interest rate numbers and the amount of interesting we’re paying on the credit card bill means it should be a no-brainer. the fear is, paying it off and running it up again. so, i think i’ll pay it off (if i get a loan) and then setup a ‘pay off the credit card each month’ deal from my current account so we have no choice but to clear the bill each month.

hopefully that will keep it under control if we do take this option.

Eight days have passed since David Gemmell died at his home on the 28th July 2006. I’ve written and deleted hundreds of words in attempt to describe my loss, or to recount my meetings with David, or to try and give you a sense of the man I was lucky enough to be friends with.

I can’t do it, the words seem shallow or inadequate. I can’t express how much life David carried with him, how much presence he had in the same room, nor how much generosity he displayed to those he cared about. I keep trying.

Some fans have asked me which of his characters David was most like. All of them, none of them, he was unique. However, he was born to tell stories, whether one-on-one recounting some part of his life, or to people at a book signing or to the many thousands that read his books. So when Odysseus recounts his tales for the sailors in David’s Troy I am reminded of David himself. He could captivate an audience no matter how small or large with a few small words and hold their attention to the end. He brought you into his story, made you live it, feel it and breath it.

If you were lucky enough to spend any time in David’s company you will understand what I mean. His books were just one reflection of his great ability to tell stories. To talk about life and take you with him, no matter what the topic or subject or location.

David loved his fans, he never once took his skill, success or his fan base for granted. He wrote with honesty, passion, sincerity and integrity. I’ll remember him most for those four qualities. He was honest with himself and with those around him. He had a passion for life, his writing and those he loved. He was sincere, doing everything he did for the love of it and without cynicism. And his integrity was beyond doubt. He’ll be laughing at me now, no doubt, for painting him a hero when he spent his writing career describing the flaws that heroes have. Some might not think a parting word like this is a place to talk of flaws; but David has his share. But he knew what they were. He didn’t hide from his flaws, nor pretend to be better than he was. He shouldered it all, stood up regardless and continued with the honesty that those of us who loved him, loved in him.

You will be missed David Gemmell, your stories, your laughter, the life you brought to a room. You were a man to look up to, to share a fire, a tale, a life.

I will miss you David Gemmell.

This isn’t the log blog I want to write about David, not yet, it’s still too soon. It’s a short blog to say that many people have lost a favoured author, some fans have lost an author they loved, but a few people have lost a dear friend. I’m not and can’t deal with this on a fan level, and I’m not trying to dismiss the feelings of those fans, but I’ve lost a friend and I’m dealing with it on that level.

David Gemmell died this morning, July 28th 2006, after heart bypass surgery two weeks ago.

BBC News Article